You can not heal a wound by saying it is not there, but I tell you that it takes faith, hope, love and perseverance to find the wound and believe it can be healed.
Here I am, hiding out in the air conditioning at work, thankful that the inside lights are off and I’m near the sky light. I know that my brain has been on over drive, processing way too much lately. I think I know what God wants me to do with my life, and I’m trying, and struggling.
I tried for a long time to get settled into school and only find myself without the drive for it.
And now it’s summer. Texas is over 100 degrees every day and I wonder what exactly God is calling me to do with my so called life. People ask me, well what do you think Jesus would do and my response is “he’d ask God the Father” and the hardest part about asking God is that he doesn’t always answer the way we want him to. His mysterious scary ways often don’t have definitive resounding yes or no, even after delving into his word.
I know that through all my hair brained crazy adventures that there’s been one thing that’s remained constant.
I’ve always wanted to write.
It comes back to writing and God.
Accept this time it isn’t a yearning to finish some crazy Sci-Fi adventure which leaves my characters questioning God, it’s Finding Lulu, a book I outlined two summers ago when my evenings after work were spent at Barnes and nobles tapping away at my mini.
While I could definitely use without the frequent Barnes and Nobles trips, I could definitely use a space in my new place that would be just for writing and studying and quiet time. I think it’s time to get my laptop up and running, even if it’s just for writing. I have a desktop for gaming. ^^
So I need a lithium ion battery and a new adapter…. good news is that Asus still makes my laptop over a year and a half later. So parts shouldn’t be that hard to come by.
I think this is a positive direction. I’m going to have to get working on that Finding Lulu outline again. Maybe I’ll start a tumblr just for that.